Posted on: June 22, 2008 - 1:35 pm
Mehboob Studios, Mumbai June 22, 2008 12:51 pm
Physical and mental pain has the capacity to alter your countenance. It converts perfectly normal circumstances into the abnormal and acts as a grotesque reflection on to those that come in its close proximity.
Yesterday on set was a day full of humor and camaraderie. There was laughter and joy and smiles and back slapping. There was song and romance, there was rhythmic movement, the air was throbbing with happiness.
Today, because of my physical pain, the air is different. The faces are grim and sombre. There is apprehension. It is not because they feel different today. It is because they feel my discomfort and perhaps give it respect. I am humbled by their attitude. I wish I could have been like yesterday, but it is difficult to suppress my agony. So much concern for the fellow being. So much concern for the fellow artist. I am blessed to be in such company. Thank you members of the unit. I shall endeavor to bring cheer. It is what we must all do, despite our own personal despair.
Pain has so many manifestations. But it has always been its conditioning that has stood out. No one has the ability to take over someone else’s agony. But reaching out, holding and embracing it does symbolically at least bring in some measure of relief.
And I am taken back as I write to my days in the August of 1982 at the Breach Candy Hospital as I lay in the ICU, fighting for my life after the injury on the sets of ‘Coolie’.
Glass partitions separate each cabin from the other. The ominous sounds of life saving gadgetry and the gentle patter of the most committed nurses I have ever seen, are the only sounds that break the deathly silence. Deathly because after the ICU there no further stops.
My neighbor to my left would every morning turn his face towards me and through the tubes and wires and equipment fixed on to him would raise his hand in a thumbs up gesture, and greet me with the faintest of smiles. I had no voice. My trachea was punctured and a machine that breathed for me was fitted to it. My lips could form words but there was no sound. I would respond back to fellow sufferer with similar gesture. The rest of the day went struggling with the treatment and with the doctors. The mornings would be looked forward to for our little exchange. Strange how a simple gesture could carry so much anticipation.
I think I was repairing faster than him. For, after a month or perhaps two, one never knows passage of time in ICU’s, I was put on my feet. I crumbled. My legs were rubber. It was my first realization of the severity of my condition. Would I have to live the rest of my life as a cripple. What would I do. I would never be able to act again.
Many sleepless nights went by, until one night when there was no one in the room I got up on my own with great effort, slung my feet by the bed and holding on to it attempted to stand. It took me a couple of hours to accomplish that. But accomplish I did. Then I decided the next night to move. I would manage a few inches, tire and retire. The edge of the room was perhaps 3-4 feet away and it became my final destination. I had to move and walk their on my own and back. This I resolved.
Every night the distance covered reduced my ultimate goal and there was a sense of happy achievement. Day by day the strength came back, until it was possible for me to walk to the wash room on my own. I had fought with the authorities on this. Normally a patient in this condition would have been shifted to a general room, but I had in my bravado declared ‘I came in here on a stretcher, and when I leave I want to walk out.’
My neighbor had of course through out this ‘walkathon’ of mine been a patient observer. And even though he remained immobile his hand and the thumbs up remained part of his daily cheer for me.
One morning after exchanging our greetings I walked across to the wash room and on returning within some minutes found my neighbors bed empty. I asked the nurse where he was. She stood silently in front of me and pointed her finger to the sky and moved on. I stood there motionless. But just a few minutes ago he had greeted me, I questioned. Stoic expressions and a lets get on to the next critical patient attitude pervaded the ICU. There was no room for emotion, because if there were, there would be very few in the nursing profession that would last.
My neighbor in the room next door perhaps knew his end was near, but never did he ever express anything else but hope and love when I used to turn to him every morning.
I suffer my little tooth ache and transform the attitude on the set to my own misery. How wrong. I must never allow my personal pain to be borne by others.
When I go there tomorrow after getting back from Indore, where I go tonight, I shall do better. I shall smile and laugh and be happy and be in happiness with the others. My pain can wait. I must understand the happiness of others if I want my pain to be understood !
Off to the airport. More later perhaps if there is connection tonight. Else there is always Mr MOBLOG !!
My love for you as always -
Amitabh Bachchan
Hi Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig B.
love u always.
I request u that please please do not work more than 6 hour per day
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hey man stop shedding crocodile tears and showing all the time that you want to connect to your blog, see basically your blog is another item number for all the people who read it , so 2marrow if you decide to shut it down nobody will care , as long it is thier people will read it just for the fun of it .
secondly dont tell about your health problems to garner sympathy write something more meaningful tell us how you become sucessful in life not your daily soap opera
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hey i m the first one to reply.
so sir sat sri akal and sorry to know abt ur pain.
hope u will get well soon and best wishes
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RESPECTED SIR; SAIRAM. PRANAMS.
What an agony you have undergo..ooooops….Even with minor sore throat etc., I make my whole family sit around me, looking at my every movement and when I smile, they heave a sigh of relief. Now, at 66, I learn how I ought not to be. What a lesson you are giving your loving, adoring fans every day. Thank you Sir. Please take good care.
PRANAMS. PRAYERS.
V. RAMASWAMY & SON PADMANAB SRIDHAR
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Salaam Mr Bachchan
Just a quick remedy for tooth ache - get sum clove oil, soak sum cotton wool into the oil and then place it in ur mouth, under or over the tooth thats aches, and try to keep mouth closed.
Leave it in there for a couple of hours/overnight or however long u can manage - between ur shoots and Inshallah ur pain shall shud ease.
Wa alaikum asalaam
Sara UK
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Dear Amitji!
I am amazed at your courage.. I researched the meaning of your name & found that Amitabh means- The One with Boundless Splendour!
In your life you have lived true to your name & exhibited limitless brilliance, grandeur & magnificence and these qualities have now embodied your Blog!
You come across as a kind man treating us all on this blog like your kin.. Kindness comes from Kin-dness!
I’m sure that establishing a 2-way connection with so many people across the world will expand your consciousness & u will one day encompass All.. literally becoming the Boundless One!!!
So just carry on without any limits…
Have a Happy Day!
Ajit
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dEAR MR. BACHCHAN,
IT IS VERY SAD TO READ THAT U ARE I8N PAIN. WISHING U A SPEEDY RECOVERY
AND I HOPE THAT U ARE IN YR OWN SELF VEWRY SOON.
ANITA
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Charan Wandna Sir ji
I like your these lines many other things written behind these words really we have to like this only …….
“When I go there tomorrow after getting back from Indore, where I go tonight, I shall do better. I shall smile and laugh and be happy and be in happiness with the others. My pain can wait. I must understand the happiness of others if I want my pain to be understood !”………..
your thoughts are too good as a reader or you can say as a admirer i just want to say your words are GOLDEN but we care for you as you are doing something for us either to entertain or what ever so we should care for you and can not demand beyond limits …………..
do take care of your self and take good rest as much as you can ……
with regards
-=B(”,)UNTY=-
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Dear sir ,
Sat Shri Akal,
Sir I am your big fan. I aways pray to GOD for your health.Sir , I want to say something ..You are the son of a punjabi mother.Sir it will be your big tribute to your mother and the whole punjabi community if you make a punjabi film.
We all punjabi people will really thankful to you for this.
Sir you look really son of a punjabi mother when you wear punjabi dress (turben).you look very good in major sahb and aab tumhare havvale wattan shathion and Kohram etc…….
With Best Wishes,
Kuldeep Singh Brar
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dEAR MR. BACHCHAN,
IT IS VERY SAD TO READ THAT U ARE IN PAIN. WISHING U A SPEEDY RECOVERY
AND I HOPE THAT U ARE IN YR OWN SELF VERY SOON.PLEASE TAKE PROPER MEDICATION . U HAVE TAKEN ME SO MANY YEARS BACK WHEN I WAS 7 YRS OLD AND U WERE IN THE ICU AFTER THE COOLIE ACCIDENT. AS YOU HAVE MENTIONED , U WERE STRUGGLING IN THE ICU, I REMEMBER MY PARENTS TELLING ME THAT I DID NOT EAT AT ALL FOR 2 DAYS AND EVERYBODY IN MY HOME WAS WORRIED ABOUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO ME AND THEY WOULD LIE TO ME THAT U R RECOVERING AND THAT THEY HEARD IT IN THE NEWSB SO THAT I WOULD EAT. BUT IN VAIN.
GET WELL SOON
LOTS OF WISHES AND PRAYERS FOR U
ANITA KAUL
ANITA
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hi
i saw yr n aishwaya’s interview on india tv it seemed u were not happy with the interviewer
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Bravo Mr. Bachchan,
Yet another insght that has helped to question my attitude towards other!!!.
Wish you recover soon.
Love and lots of it
Mohnish
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amithji dont worry…..we are with you.
almighty allah will give you good health…insha allah
take care of your health
by kader
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Bravo Mr. Bachchan,
Yet another insight(correction… thanks to my snoopy friend) that has helped to question my attitude towards others(correction… thanks again to my snoopy friend) !!!.
Always wondered how you never make spelling mistakes
Love and lots of it
Mohnish
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First, maybe your tooth is telling you that you shouldn’t have had that lollipop or next time make it sugarless!
I got very emotional with your writings about that Coolie accident. You are such a brave and determined man, a survivor in every sense of the word. That was so sad about your neighbor in the ICU.
It will be so hard to hide your pain tomorrow but you are a great actor. If I were the others, I think I might feel even worse if on account of me you had to work so hard to put on an act all day to hide the pain. Don’t worry if others want to show their concern. I hope by tomorrow the pain disappears and you won’t have to worry about this.
Love,
Rochelle
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sir, ye hamare liy khushi ki baat hai ki ab hum jaise aapke chahne wale mail ke jariye aap se baat kar sakte hai. hume jab se hosh sambhalahai aap ki filmo ko dekh ke hi bare huaye hai. bus aap aise hi filmo me kam karte rahe . bhagwan se prathna hai ki swasth rahe aur isi tarah filmi parde pe aapke abhinay dekhne ko mile. aap no 1 ho aur hamesh rahoge.
regards
amit
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All of us who have had near death experiences will understand what you say. I too was struck by an auto immune disorder when I was 22. It left me immobile, without the use of my arms and legs. I learnt how to write again (it has affected my handwriting), I learnt to walk again ( my gait is not what it used to be). I questioned why it had to be me. But now, 12 years later, I thank God for letting me live. It has changed my attitude to life. It has made me a better person. Mr Bachchan, I love these lines from the hymn Abide With Me. I share these with you:
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death’s sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
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sir you r super hero.
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Dear Amitji,
Gosh that was some good blogging…I am proud to be the reader of such emotion…and humbled by it .We give in to our pain hoping to get attention, wrapped up in our own misery and self pity. And yet there are those who take it all so bravely knowing that this too shall pass.
“I must understand the happiness of others if I want my pain to be understood” you say.There it is…your strength of character reveqaled yet again. Did you crib and complain about your toothache? Did you make anyone feel responsible or blame anyone for your pain and misery? Did you wallow in self pity? I think not.
You are human and much loved and cherished. You are not expected to be super human. No one wants that of you.Your pain is understood and felt and shared and hopefully in the process…halved!
Take good care of you. God Bless and God Speed.
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Sarkar ki jay ho , Amit ji ki jay ho , Bharat mata ki jay ho, Long Live Amit ji.
Thank you for reading.
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YOU HAVE DONE A LOT FOR INDIAN CINEMA WHICH HAD A MASS APPEAL THROUGH OUT THE WORLD.ON SCREEN WHILE YOU WERE LAUGHING WE LAUGHED WITH YOU,WHEN YOU WERE CRYING WE CRIED WITH YOU AND WHEN YOU WERE FIGHTING THE GOONS WE WAFTED PUNCHES IN THIN AIR AND CHEERING YOU UP.WE FELT A LITTLE BIT OF YOU IN OUR LIVES.YOU ARE A TRUE LEGEND AND A HUMAN BEING WE LOVE.
RECENTLY I TOOK MY WIFE AND SON TO WATCH BHOOTHNAATH.WE THOROUGLY ENJOYED THE MOVIE.MY SON SOHAM IS 5 YRS OLD AND THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME HE WATCHED YOUR MOVIE AND HENCEFORTHT HE HAS BECOME YOUR FAN TOO.HE CALLS YOU BACCHAN DADU(HOPE YOU NEVER MIND).
THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR US AND WE WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU AS ALWAYS.
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Iv suffered a very critical illness in 2006 and thus know how humble one feels to find visitors in the hospital every morning and evening! one sms, one phone call, one visitor when u return home all make u feel indebted for life! Only becoz, the other person is respecting my pain, and is trying to make me feel good! Then one feels like making the other person feel good by a gifting a smile and a pleasant countenance! but at more severe times one fails too! that may have happened to u today morning sir!
the way uv portrayed the post-Coolie months is indeed touching! I understand y u still remember ur neighbor at ICU! Nobody forgets a daily thumbs up recvd in those conditions! My heart pays respect to the suffering entity who did not let u feel his pain and cheered u moments b4 his last breath! Must hv been a very brave person. May his soul rest in peace. and may we all acquire such bravado and oblivion towards our sufferings.
have a nice journey, a nicer journey back home and have a total health check-up done even if its not scheduled. back to back cold and toothache indicate deficiencies and weaknesses.
may God bless u!!
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Dear Mr. Bachchan,
We’ve all known about your various illnesses, the accident of course. And I have always wondered how you have managed to transcend that, and continue with your work, and continue with it, giving it your all.
Admiring you on screen has been one thing, we have all grown up with you as our screen hero. After joining the film fraternity, I have admired your work even more, understanding better the work, the imagination and the talent that makes it possible.
But the self revealed on your blog takes my admiration to respect.
I’m sure that human frailty affects you as much as it does all of us. That you are as prone to bad moods, pain, anger, irritation like us. But your introspection, your constant endeavour to check your self has a lot to teach. Thank you.
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Dear BigB,
This is my third post and i see that the first two never got posted!!!
I will try again, get well soon. We look forward to your blog everyday.
Our prayers to the Almighty to keep this everlasting light from all harm and wish for his health as its everybody’ wealth.
Regards,
Hrishi
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Your neighbour at the hospital was indeed a great soul…
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Hello Amitabhji,
It is such a pleasure that you are going to Indore, my home town, my birth place…Wish I could come and welcome you among lakhs of fans gathered there…but my misfortune that I cant as I am miles away in Melbourne…my karm bhumi which has provided me and my family livelihood for last 9 years…
Hope you feel better and my best wishes…
Hemal
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you are so kind sir !!
this is my first visit to your blog and i find it very good with full of emotion of today’s post ………better way to interact with people ……
its really amazing ….hope you too reply me ……
your fan and ac both
milan mishra
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My dear AB,
Your commitment to movies is as high as HVRB’s to Literature. The whole Nation cannot forget Coolie. Hope you get over the current pain soon. Saw Sarkar Raj. Hope the “sarkar” is happy now and stops bothering you!
Ananthram
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hello sir,
my name is harsh chaturvedi and am from the city of taj(agra),i m on ur blog for the first time and it astonishes me to a great extent that how a busy man like you finds time , watever it’s duration may be,to interact with ur loved ones(or fans ).i must say the internet prooves it’s worth yet again as i am able to interact wid a person whom, if i call just a “superstar” would not be appropriate.
wid lots of luv,
for u and wid u always
harsh
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Sir,
The human in an actor dominates in your blog and connects to all of us.
We are easily able to easily connet to your views and feelings and it feels great, as the person writing the blog in not an actor but seems to be a close friend and such is the impact of your writing.
regards - Kshitij
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Its nice that you are able and willing to share as much of your life as this on this most public of forums.
I do have to say that you have a tendency at times to get pretty petty, especially with journalists who have apparently “wronged” you through their writings. I thought, owing to no fault of your own but just my perception, that you would be someone who knew when to pick your battles Mr. Bachachan, alas I have been disillusioned, which is not a bad thing, just a difference in your perception and my own. Don’t you think you’re giving these journalists more attention than they would otherwise receive would you not choose to battle them here. I also understand that it is the relationship between those words and your sensibilities, something that no one but you can best understand.
I can relate to tooth pain and its the worst kind cause you cna;t really do anything about it.Hope you don’t loose your tooth.
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This is the first time i m reading Big B’s blog….n this page has taugft me one thing-”WINNERS NEVER QUIT AND QUITTERS NEVER WIN”…Hats off to you sir….keep up the good work.No matter what our health minister or any reporter thinks of you.No matter what rubbish Raj Thakrey says…INDIA LOVES HER SUPERSTAR…
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Sir touched by the way you have expressed your pain and how it has an effect on everyone. I agree that your pain transform the attitude on the sets, but sir why do you have to go to work when u know you are in pain and the entire unit will suffer because of your pain. There is always a sick day for every person why not avail it.
It’s just a small suggestion. Hope u feel better and wishing you for a quick recovery from all the pains.
Love you always.
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Why are the responses so often kept pending under moderation for such long periods of time? What is the reason behind this? Why can’t these be processed faster and put on the blog say within 5 to 10 minutes of being written?
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hi dude ( was confused between “dude”and “daddu” , but seeing your energy level, i think age can easily be discarded [;)] )
truly said.. sometimes due to our small pain we put others in difficult situation ( where they certainly don’t know about the magnitude of our pain and this makes situation worse for them) .. and a gloomy face is always a source of infection and induces an epidemic called as ” sadness” all around.
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i wrote some lines few days ago ( don’t know whether relevant to this topic or not, but still posting
***** Code of Life *****
i tried
tried really hard
played all my cards
but still
i failed
then again i tried
tried to stop the tears
on the ruins of all the years
on the corner of my roof
i sat, totally alone!!!
i tried
to look away
from contrition of heart
vision hazed
due to tears in my eye
due to blazed sun in the sky
i tried
observed with squinted eyes
some dried out trees
deserted road
house of a widow
abandoned and lonesome
a laborer walking
sweaty but without any sum
i tried
to decipher
the code of life
and thought
there is only pain
every moment is in vain
then i saw
a little boy
on distant roof
playing with his kite
he played, got tired
his kite never took off
yet he was smiling
i found him mocking
mocking at me
a smile danced on my face
a lesson, life is a race
play your part, don’t be late
rest is rest, called as fate!!!
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Regards,
Dilip sanchora
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Mr.Bachchan,
You are the greatest. God bless you!
chandra
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Sir,
You are a genius!
A complete artist….writer, actor, orator all in a single mould!
This is an extremely well written piece.
I almost imagined the screenplay of a movie scene.
Get well soon!
Love and regards,
Debashis
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Dear Amit uncle ,
I am anxiously waiting to know second week box office collections of SARKAR RAJ .
Also for your forth coming movie ALLADIN .
Thanking you
Gaurav Lakhwani
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Hi Amitji,
How is u r tooth ache?
Read about u r ICU experiance it must be terrible,
Get well soon,
Mayank.
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Dear Mr. Bachchan or shall I call you the god of hindi cinema
its a pleasure reading your articles. There is always so much to learn from you.
Apart from your acting skills its a great pleasure to know how skillful are u as a writer. I m sure you could be a greater author if you ever wanted to be one.
Pain and sufferings are always going to be a part n parcel of life but how we adapt to this pain n suffering and find a way is way to lead successful life.
Inspite of all your setbacks ABCL health and other controversies you have always managed to find a way to channelise your energies in a positive way.
Your blogs are always thought provoking and always make me feel and think about life in a different perspective.
Do take care of your health and i m from your area Near Juhu
I still remember seeing u in ur KURTA when u came back from hospital around 1985 waiving hands tat pic is completely embedded in my mind.
You wont beleive but Khuddar is one of my fav movies and the scene where u make the car fly in tat song ruk ja babu still bring back those golden moments of my childhood.
Do take care of ur health and try working with different cinema and dont hesitate to experiment
Regards
Amit
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I think you are the best Media manager, visiting a temple, visiting your alma mater, new releases, there will be breaking news atleast twice a week, you ensures that you and your family are in the limelight.
This has made you a very big star
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Dear Mr.Bachchan
I dont have any words to express what i feel reading this post . I have been following your blog entries quite recently however I never left a comment as I always felt that you are a * Big Star * and you can never feel like a normal human …How stupid of me !!
I have tears in my eyes when i read what you wrote today …it very touching and straight from the heart ..
Thanks !!
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Sir,
I am a dentist and reading your blog for the first time. Needless to say am a huge fan and we have something in common I would like to believe. My mother is from Allahabad and 1942 born too and when we were kids would like to tell everyone that my Mom was exactly a month older than Amitabh Bachchan.:-)
We have grown up watching your movies and my sisters and myself would enact the last scene of Muquaddar ka Sikandar!
Please take care of your tooth. It is the worst pain any one could ever have.
Was enjoying watchinh Zameer again yesteday on TV. All the best to you,Sir!
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Hi sir
I’ am an Indian born in Fiji now living in New Zealand. I heard about your blog from an interview of your son at the IIFA awards. Didn’t believe it so I googled it and here we are. By what I have read so far all i can say is that it’s some powerful words. I to am going through a sports injury to my knee and when I read about your attitude towards your tooth pain it moved me. And I to control my pain of the knee and have a smile on my face because a smile is very contagious sir, so remember to always smile
god bless, take care.
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Dear AmitJi,
I totally understand what you have shared here. It is not just because you are a actor I like, it is because of the amount of hardships in your fame that you have gone through and still come back as a winner is that motivates me.(May be millions across world and billion in India. God is very kind to you. He has given fame and in-fame in equal amounts. Rather in-fame is more than fame. But the way you have handled is quite remarable. It is what makes you an icon, real winner story. Relax little bit, dont stress too much.
Keep going Boss, God is with you, Fans are with you. The earth’s largest fan association called Big B Yahoo groups is with you.
God is great, Big B is God of acting, follow the God in life and make our lives better and best for fellow citizens where we are.
Sudhi
Big B Yahoo Groups
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very gud evening to u sir,i am a biiiiig biiiiig biiiig biiiiig fan of not only u but of abhi and aish toooo.jus read today’s blog that u posted at 1:35 today on june 22,2008.Sir,it was really touching nd ofcourse consisting a lesson..Pain does convert perfectly normal circumstances into the abnormal…but AGAIN if its MR. AMITABH BACHCHAN,fir toh pain nd sorrows ki aisi ki taisi….Sir i have one request…. Can u please write those lines in ur next blog,which if i am not mistaken,are written by the CHARISMATIC Mr. HARIVANSH RAI BACHCHAN…I can recall nd write a few words here that have a rhyming scheme which are…AGNIPATH AGNIPATH AGNIPATH….I am sorry i dont know more than that….ok then plz do reply..Regards to JAYA maam,abhi and aish…GOD BLESS..SAIONARA,,,SENORITA…..KHUDA HAFIZ…
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Dear Amitji,
I request you to don’t write abt ur past.We all are forgot ur past. Now we want to see our HERO with great comeback like SARKAR,BHOOTNATH, BAGBAAN & many more………
Yesterday I read in one newspaper that you r likely to start ur own Production House!!!!!
Can u pls tell us is it true? if yes, then wht is ur plan for that?
Waiting for your reply!!!
Take care of ur self!!!!!
With Love,
Piyush
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what a humble person you r ,great BIG B GREAT.
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Dear Mr.Bachchan,
Sorry to say so - but I do not agree with you on this (hiding the pain).
We all have two ways of living our lives - professional and personal.
Whereas you are an accomplished actor, there is no doubt about it, why would you “even try to make an attempt” to mix your professional life with your personal one? ACTING is your profession and hiding your real emotions (feeling pain etc.) on the sets means you are “cheating” your team, who always wish your well being. Also there is another aspect - by trying “not to feel pain” would’nt there be an equal loss of ability to feel “alright” - as they say for every action there is a reaction.
It is like if one does not feel sadness - how can he feel happiness - so my suggestions is to remain truthful to yourself - if there is some pain - FEEL IT - at least real non-actors will not feel let down by your acting skills.
Hope you take it in right spirit - no offence intended.
Thank you for sharing your ICU experience
Dinesh
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Dear Sir,
I am an Engineer by profession and could derive the following equation depicting the greatest personality of our times : -
[A Bright Son x A Real Actor] + 2 x [Honesty + Sincerity + Empathy] + Lovable Human Being + Dedicated Wife +[Brotherhood] - 100x[Hatefullness + Negativity] = [Amitabh + Jaya +Abhishek + Aishwarya ]
With Regards, Love anfd Faith…
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hmmmmmmm………quite touchy……keep blogging.
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Hi,
Sir , i think you write really well. Usage of words, expression, so very eloquent.
I also admire yur humility and down to earth nature.
Regards,
Vandana
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I do not pretend by saying I am your fan , I love your works and respect you as an actor. But I do manage some time to read your latest post regularly. I can observe one thing the more and more you are posting your words in this site you are slowly slowly getting close to us. Your post never remind us that the author is a very famous star of our country. The reason of this long introduction is I have come across similar kind of situations some times in my life. When I was four years old I suffered from very acute abdomen pain which nearly went for 4 years and I was operated due to that. During that course of the time I had been admitted in many hospitals in Kolkata , had confronted quite similar situations what u have faced in those tough times.
I would like to thank you for sharing such heart breaking and touchy incident with us which I am sure u will remember through out your life. With many tears in my eyes … Kaustav
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Fascinating stuff Mr. Bachhan. Your blog is a hit with your down to earth postings - humble yet illuminating and the positivity one gets from them is both inspiring and encouraging. Glad you started your blog. I am a great admirer of your work for last several years, ever since your first debut and seen all your movies. Good or bad movies, your effort has been exceptional in all and that is reason enough for me to look forward to your latest releases. Keep on the good work and may God grant you good health to continue your experiments with newer challenges in acting and your other endeavors.
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Mr. Bachchan,
Your motive those days(and probably to this day), is try, try and you will succeed. It was probably your will, desire and determination that made you take the first step.
Encouragement can be seen from the most unlikely sources and in a subtle way, the neighbor who gave you thumbs up almost everyday, at that time may have been your source of inspiration. In a similar manner, the unit people feel your pain and want you to get better. If happiness can be expressed, so can pain. All our wishes are with you and be yourself. Take care. We need you to keep us going.
Sujata.
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u r such a bravo amitabh ji…. i m ur biggest fan….
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resp.Amit sahab, Namaskar. I’m an engineer of ONGC ltd & Cartoonist-Humorist-Columnist of Bhaskar-Group.I have sketched a unique series of your caricatures , which presents you in various get-ups [right from ur childhood to 'SarkarRaaj ' ,with ur whole family-friends-ur fevourite Producers-Directors!]This one & only project would come in my book ‘ Big-B in twisted lines !’ I’ve sent u 35 caricatures,but couldn’t got ur response.Today,filmstar-Farukh Shekh sugested me to try thru blog.May I aspect ur letter sir ? *NIRMISH THAKER
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greetings to you!!!
I am a great fan of your work and of your writings as well. may you be blessed with good health aand happiness…..
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Dear Sir,
How many things you have in store ?
Keep going
Sharad
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Dear Amitji,
Pain is something one suffers alone. Yet you will always find others who understand how bad you are feeling. In my profession, you need to have the sensitivity to know another’s pain, yet not allow the emotion to overwhelm you for it will affect your work in alleviating the other patient’s pain.
Toothaches will come and toothaches will go. As your father said, Jab tak jeevan hai sangharsh hai! Heal fast! And think of good thoughts to make that happen.
Get well soon
Anshu
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Wow!! Just wonderful to read each of your posts. We are very grateful that you chose to share your experiences and through them teach us the true art of living. I live in the US and every morning when I wake up the first thing to do even before brushing is to read this blog. Your travel schedule at this age is also an inspiration. What else can I say but thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking this time to write each day. Good luck with your upcoming projects!
Regards,
Rajesh
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Hello Amitji
I am posting something after a long time. Ofcourse I used to log in and read your posts almost daily. But I was not able to put anything in writing. Today your feelings have touched my heart. Hence here I am. I know pain can be an absolute killer of all joy for self and others. It is an all consuming sensation. But one has to learn to live with it whether it is physical or mental. Everyone goes through pain at some time or other. It is only very few who can conquer it and still smile cheerfully as your neighbour did in the hospital. I salute his spirit and pray that his noble soul rests in peace in heave .
Hope you get well soon and enjoy your work and surroundings. I know you are practically slogging daily, may be because you enjoy it!! I wish you slow down a little. Anyway take care and keep your faith. We are all there with you.
Regards
Susheela Das
Navi Mumbai
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Fantastic musings…..the experience you shared about your neighbour in the ICU was so touching.
You are right Sir, we look at the world through our own lenses which is a reflection of what we feel internally and a perception of how we would like to see things outside of us.
We often let our pains , physical or mental, shape our behaviors; and more often than not we tend to drag others around us into our spheres of pain and vitiate their moods. One needs to be extra cautious about not letting one’s pains infect others around.
Enjoyed reading your reflections…..
Warm Regards
Prakash
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Another good virtue of life…”Why your pain should be borne by others”.
Thanks…
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Hello Mr Bachchan
“I must never allow my personal pain to be borne by others… I must understand the happiness of others if I want my pain to be understood !” … You are … great human being, i like the way You are writing.
Thank You for being here with us, thank You for Your sacrifice for Your work, for all…
I always want to tell You so many things… but my english is not very well and i cant express what i want. To make quick response for Your posts i always write Take care of Your health, Dont give up and Keep going on. Its just essence of my fillings. Its just a little part what i want to tell.
I always hope You read my post and notice my presence here and my support to You. I was very happy when You noticed that You have also fans in Poland, which read and reply to Your blog.
In the other side I know that its imposible to read all of ours posts, You have so many fans …
I admire You, as a busy man as You Sir, You can find time to read them and most improtant You find time to tell us about Your fellings, about Your work and so many other things. You are great, really.
All the best
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Hi Big B!
Here’s some interesting stuff i’ve conjured up for u to get well..
The Human body is interesting. It is a piece of biology that is you, but it often seems to be in the other room. What I mean by this is that there is no real communication between you and your system. It is not designed to communicate with you, except through pain. That’s all. It is a one-dimensional aspect given to you early on so you would be able to survive - so you’d know if you were stepping on a hot coal, for instance. Or so you would know if something was hurting or poking you, in order to get away from it. Pain seems negative and always a challenge. However, it’s one of your greatest gifts, since it keeps you out of trouble! It alerts you if something’s wrong… and that’s all you have as communication and it’s one way. You can’t talk back to it, or ask it questions.
But… you can speak to your body.. It is ready to “listen to the Big Boss.” Some of us don’t really believe that you can speak to your cells. The truth is that you can, and they have always been listening and they listened to Big B when he was at the Breach Candy ICU and he was able to walk out of the hospital and they will listen again and repair your body!
Think about that & get well soon!
love,
coolguy
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Hello Mr.Bacchan,
As I write many times that I am big fan of u like millions of others, I have one dream to meet with , for this Itried in KBC but it could not happen. I tried KBC just for meet you…
Please take care of your health , Many times I observed that you post ur blog in after midnight . So please take proper rest ..
I hope this time I would be get reply because today I am the first person.
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Dear Amitabh
I wish you would write daily so motivating pieces.I admire you from the time you fought back physically and later mentally.
I still many lines you spoke while opening KBC.They at times have helped me live and live for commitment.
Congrats and are you always so understanding?
sanjay
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Hero !!!
yes you are really a HERO. Not only in films but in real life as well. Thank you so much for being what you are. Thank you for being a role model for millions when the so called ‘national heroes’ have disappointed us by their spineless and questionable character.
We are for sure Hero worshipers. Its in our blood in our tradition. Unfortunately in last few decades people there had not been a true national leader. But we still found our inspiration from sports and film personalities. Yes !! great actor you for sure are but more than that you have a great capacity to inspire and motivate the youth in this country. Millions swear on you and respect you from the bottom of their heart Mr. Bachchan.
This medium of communication you have chosen to interact or communicate with millions of your fans, inhibited, is a very important path you have shown to people who have a strong personality to influence people in a very positive way.I wish others had the same expression, same richness of character, same conviction …but…!!
Keep it up SIR(kar)
Dinesh
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Dear Amitabhji:
This is one of the best articles that you have written. Of late, i notice that you have been very philosophical with your thoughts- maybe what I enjoy about reading your blog ( …and I have been reading daily…almost!), is the messages within your experiences- that is one of the most differentiating features of your blog.
In this article, your meesage is most apt in current circumstances- many people have become so self-centric that one is unable to understand the pain and agony of the less fortunate. Recently I had arranged for “annadhanam” (food distribution) at Hyderabad. It was one of the most beautiful moments- to feed 700 people- there were boys and girls of all ages and old men and women, who were very happy enjoying a good meal.Looking at them, I forgot all my pains, worries and tensions- the smile on face of young 6 year old girl touched me the most- I took their snaps and the girl would smile and ask me again how she looked in the shot. I showed her and she was very happy. Small things mean a lot to people- we have to continously strive to serve other and find happiness in others. This has prompted me to start a foundation - so that we will be able to do more service activities in a reas related to food, healthcare and education.
Your statement- “My pain can wait. I must understand the happiness of others if I want my pain to be understood” is a very profound statement. Thank you for sharing such a nice experience.
I met you at IIFA Singapore luncheon in 2006 at Swissotel and that was one of my most beautiful experience.I did notice then that you spoke effortlessly for 15-20 min without referring to any of your written material. Just before you spoke, Minister Balakrishnan spoke too- but was referring to his written notes often. The stark difference of getting connected with the audience was evident and you did it in style. Prince SRaj Singh, Prince of Jodhpur and a friend of yours too, was standing next to me and he and I exchanged glances at the way you spoke. I always knew that you have more to share with the world then just your wonderful films!Pl lkeep up the good work.
Wishing you best of health and if you re-visit Singapore, do contact me at anand_govi@yahoo.com And if I could get a chance to work with you on some of the social service projects in india through my foundation, then I would feel blessed and most fortunate.
best regards,
Anand
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thks a ton for such a personal triumph of ur spirit & intimate moment..In turn, just showing us somehow a way to go thru our pain/misery…
Love you all the more,
Prajakta K.
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Dearest Amit ji,
i love the way you write and express yourself so fluently… when you share your feelings thus, it feels great but at the same time feel so lost as to what i could say to you.
my mom always recounted the ‘coolie’ incident from when i first started watching your films. she told me how the whole of India, including her, were united in prayer and how ppl flooded places of worship to pray for one person they loved so much.
the way you have narrated the tale of of of your fellow patient is really touching. His thumbs up cheered you up and probably he served his last purpose of living; of being able to tell you tht there is always hope and of encouraging you.
we take too many things for granted but you are so humble, thats why you deserve everything yu have and a lot more
have a great time shooting, hope your toothache has resided.
love,
Sumana
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Dear Sir,
in Germany, we have a saying: Shared joy is joy doubled, shared pain is pain halved.
It’s so important not to be left alone with pain or grief. To have someone ‘reaching out, holding and embracing’ to the one who is suffering, I believe, brings more than just ’some measure of relief’. It’s a part healing, it’s necessary to every human being.
Thank you for the bittersweet story about your time in ICU. Each of your blog posts brings you closer to all of us.
Love and regards,
Elisabeth
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how many times have seen the film AAG ?
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hey amitji!!!!
very nice story!!!!
im very happy that you can share with us fans your pain!!
get well love and more!!!
mayan!!!
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hello Mr. Bachchan,
it is reallly been a great learning experince for me….yes i mean it….ur blogs have been a great motivational force for me….the way and courage with which u have faced various phases of ur life….its just out of this world…hats offf 2 u sir…annn yes ,we have ,from our parents ,herd abt the story of u recovering from that life threatening accident on the sets of “coolie”….ann the whole of INDIA ,rather the whole of world praying for ur speedy recovery .ann wen u met up wid some intestinal illness in 2005….me ann ma college frnds really prayed for u ann even conducted a pooja for u…fact of the matter is….we can not simply c u in any kind of bad condition at any point of time….u r just tooo tooo tooooo precious for us…a real idol,a real inspiration…ann most importantly….a great great great wonderful human being….alll i have to say is…sir ,u keep working the way u hav been….may u get loads an loads of success….alll my wishes to u an ur family…..always be happy…keep smilin
love,
PRASAD KASBEKAR
AURANGABAD
MAHARASHTRA
INDIA.
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Respected sir, how is your health?do take good care of yourself.
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I have been your fan since 1977 when I went to India for the first time from Pakistan. Saw your movie SHOLAY on big screen in Lucknow and when ever I was visiting Lucknow till the last day of stay in Gonda/Bahraich saw that every time then in Calcutta again. Am your fan now and will be may GOD give you long life.
Kamal Shamsi
Auckland, New Zealand
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Dear Amitji,
Such a moving story of your recovery in 1982 however I’m stunned with your memory. You described as it happened yesterday…I don’t know if you realize, it’s been 26 years since then.
Anyways, I bow my head for your guts and thank the mighty God for giving you spirit and strength to get up on your own foot on that day. Otherwise, we wouldn’t have had the fortune of watching you in films like Sarkar, Black, K3G….list is endless.
One again thank you for a wonderful blog.
Sree
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Hi Amitji,
i am moved by this blog, how real.We as humans know death is inevitable but we always think death never come to us but to others and old.Who knows yamaraj will b next to us waiting to take us,lol. I still remebre i was in 6th std when u had ur coolie accident and we made a get well card signed by all teachers and students. Never before i remebre a film star been treated as their own family membre and whole nation behind u, ur really god blessed to get the love from everyone. i come from chennai a gr8 fan of rajini and u .Not many would remebre ur andha kanoon with rajini,i love that movie i was in 3rd or fourth when d movie was released. Somewhere i see rajini does ur type of acting eventhough he has his own style and charisma,may b because he did most of his hindi movie in tamil. Can i ask u an embarising question is ur hair real,will u dare to answer….never mind if u dont want to.Can we see a takklu amitji in movies to come.
we love u
linesh
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I am touched by your sincerity & sympathy towards others. Only few can feel other people’s grief. It’s a rare gift. Do preserve it.
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very inspiring mr b.. very inspiring.. thanks
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Dear Amitji
This is great one,
Things seems impossible but they are always ‘Doable’. Thats should be the strength behind everyone, try and try again till you suceed. If no success atleast there will be statisfaction that you tried it instead of just pondering over.
And they support given by Mate @ICU, was also encouragement which prove “yeah you are doing good, keep going u will be good soon” forgetting his own misery.
Feelin happy with the joy others get that GREAT!!
Well sorry to say, today in this materialistic world, its really hard to find people who show this joy & support.
Talking of this, my observation of living here@ Sydney, when going to work, fellow Indian dont even feel happy seeing other Indian, even if one try to smile - rarely get any in response- as if I was taking something off them or may be asking for some help! If you see someone may be Indian or not just acknowledge with smile.
And yeah good news, got success to some extent with some of Indian neighours. Now they r the one who greet first, even to fellow Australians and now feel sense of belongingness and friends around.
Hey you have great time in Lucknow, take care
Will ctch up soon
Regards & Love
Meghana
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